please, can someone just kill me already? hais...............
go on and leave me.
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Chiqa Ab
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& if you don't like what you see, you jolly well LEAVE. |
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- Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 2/20/2010 02:46:00 PM
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chingay - 1st parade - Friday, February 19, 2010 @ 2/19/2010 11:49:00 PM
chingay was definitely awesome for yesterday's run-through rehearsal, as well as today's 1st-parade performance. i can't tell you how happy and glad i am to be participating in this amazing event, & especially at this point of time.
it was tiring, cause we have to wait for like almost 3 hours before we start perfoming. and the waiting part, is the worst! the weather's humid, plus the mood swing....not a very good way to warm up before dancing. we have to apply this thick make-up by make-up artists, but before we even start dancing, we're already melting. plus, our all-cover-up outfits, its not helping at all! & im telling you, our outfits, might be hideous, but thankfully, there are other's who's far worst that ours!! hahaha. totally painful to watch. others, have this very drag outfits on them, and beautifully paint make-up on their faces. its like so so pretty! im jealous..most of us are. hehe. but its okay. after tomorrow, in the garbage you go! :) i have Fir's brother's engagement this sunday, and im thinking of how do i get there, and should i even go. im preparing excuses to give to my friends. i cant afford to go alone...people will start giving the THE-LOOK and questions will start shooting at me. so maybe, i shouldnt go? hmm. oh! i so wanna go to Universal Studios, Sentosa. :( can someone please bring me there? but i heard the tickets been all sold out. bummer!~ but still, if possible....i really wish i could go.. hmm. maybe some other time. :) i just checked my weight, and guess how much i weighed now? 43KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just great Chiqa... sigh. well, i need to shower and get back to my project, which i doubt i have any mood to do, BUT, i will try. so till the next time! ♥ you diary. |
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- @ 2/19/2010 12:36:00 AM
i wanna sleep and never wake up, so that i wont have to deal with this crucial pain, every night before i sleep. please, give me the strongest medication EVER for this sickness. im hurting. :( |
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welcome back, rasyiqah - Thursday, February 18, 2010 @ 2/18/2010 12:44:00 PM
hello.
i decided to start back on my blogging. i need to let out a few things or so somewhere and somehow, and so i remembered this "dusty" blog of mine. to start off, things have been pretty crazy these few months. oh did i tell you, im back in school? yeah. im back to books now. decided that i got to make something out of myself and also to show alot of people that im a learned person and not to take my physical appearence for granted. i want to work hard to pay off "debts" of my hardworking parents that has brought me up through so much pain. oh yeahh, i owe them wayy too much. its time that i become responsible, but first, i need to get my diploma first. i have plans. and yes, definitely, im so afraid if these plans might go wrong somewhere. but i will try. (: i have been at the skinniest stage of my life, i think, EVER? my appetite has been seriously poor. just yesterday, it was amazing how i could live without food for like a day! i mean, its like fasting, but with additional 3 hours after breaking fast. and, i only ate 2 apples throughout the whole day yesterday. i was hungry, but i wasnt like famished. weird. and just this morning, i though, "hey dont starve yourself just because ur depressed. go and eat something." so, at Geylang with daddy, i was spoilt for choice on what to eat. and when i finally decided what i wanted, and its time to dig in, not even half way through, im like, "ohkay, im done." im not usually like this though. despite whatever shit happens, i would gorged myself with food! to ease the pain. but now...ever since that stomach flu incident i had the other day, i think im becoming bones. literally, becoming lindsay lohan. ew. gross. but ah, i just wanna be myself. and im trying SO DAMN hard not to be negative to my own body. i will try to eat. at least, start with vegetables and fruits. hehe, well IF i could get this lazy ass off the couch. mood, hasnt been too good lately. i just wanna cuddle my bed, and just sleep or watch tv the whole day. like why are break ups so damn hard? pfft. yeah ive said it. break up. i dont wanna talk about it.. well, chingay's just this weekend. and im participating. (laugh all you want) oh, fred's back! but gonna return back to brunei next week. *boohoo*, have a safe trip bro. and many thanks for tuesday! well, thats it. i better end this post before i come crying again. oh this song, is just awesome. it gets me to sleep. and to calm myself, and get emo every night. it works wonders if u wanna cry yourself out u know. recommended! especially for someone who's not a fan of Malay songs, this is pretty good. :) have better days people, than i have been having. bye! |
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