& this was the other day's flowers he got me as well.

i was just looking through my pencil case, and i found this. i scanned this, and it's currently on my blog, because i want to remind that person that i have never stopped thinking of him. iloveyou

labels : appreciate your love ones while they're still around. do not be afraid to be open and express your love.

it's 3.20 in the morning. and i still can't sleep.


i finshed part of my revision, and was thinking of continuing it, but my mind's all messed up. i feel tired, but i am not sleepy. my mind's just caught up with so many things.



just, where did i go wrong...............................?

when i thought everything was okay, it struck me, have it always been?



when i have my heart and passion in something, i do not wish to let it go. certain things that i do, might be the greatest mistake of my life, but the small percentage of what i did, was the proudest moment yet.
where am i exactly getting at for this post?
indirectly, to whom it may concern.

it can be hard pleasing the people whom you really care and love most.
take my mum for an example.
she can be the most difficult person to deal with whenever we talk about this little "trusting" issue.
obviously mothers have always been protective for their children. maybe she needs time to understand that i am now an adult. i'll be turning 20 next year. and currently, i am really not sure what i'll be doing then.

i understand that i have been pushing my friends aside, and drifting away from all those laughters that i should have shared with them. for certain cases, i do have my reasons. believe me.
i am juggling. with my very hard-to-please boyfriend, friends, school and family. i love all these people, but maybe to most, i did not do a very good job in showing my truest emotions yet. but with all my heart, i very much appreciate all of them. them, who have been supporting me, and giving me courage to do things that i thought might be impossible.
things have definitely been difficult for me, just pleasing people all around. as much as i hate keeping things, i thought it might be worth it for some things. just to see smiles, was all worth it. the effort and time i have been putting in that, hopefully you'll come to realise it, sooner or later.

i got nothing else to say. other than having difficult time these week. hopefully, after exams, things would turn around for me. luck to all for just anything. :)

♥i know how shitty your feelings can be some times with some things i did that u are unagreable to it. but sometimes, u need to listen to the voices around you. starting with mine? i really want things to work out nicely even when we argue. but please not the other way around. i am and will never give up on you that easily. i know it can be possible, if we both put our mindset to it. we got to open up, and start trusting each other. i am not prepared to lose you, but are you....?

Teardrops on my Guitar
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see...

to all my Muslim friends, happy fasting!!☻







i am very excited to fast this year. =) would be spending it with someone new in my life. & very much hoping for the following years to come as well.

yes i know i am the most laziest person to update my blog, in the whole wide world! but hey, i still do update, ok? barely...but i STILL DO! =p

well to start off, things have finally turn around for us. it has been painful, but that's nothing compare to the many good times we both share. the bouquet of flowers, was the most beautiful thing anyone has ever done for me. thank you, darling. iloveyou. :)

next, EXAM'S NEXT MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my goodness! and i can honestly say, I'M NOT TOTALLY PREPARED!! i know how many people would say, "dont study at the very last minute or you'll regret". well, guess what? i am not confident at all! BUT i am trying my very best to get whatever i can in my head. so good luck to all you people taking your exams! ☻



well, i must say, family's already feeling the excitement of Hari Raya, even though it has only been 2 days of Ramadhan. heh. why i say so? well, parents went shopping yesterday afternoon, and guess what daddy bought? he bought a banner that says, "SELAMAT HARI RAYA!". cute lah. and mom quit her job 2 days back as she felt like she had enough of working, plus being sick and tired of her colleagues. (we told you so, mum!) ah damns, that means. less money for hari raya!!! dammit! =p

and as for me, i promised to make a few kuih raye's this year!! woohooo! hehe. plus new bf, new look, new clothes, new grades...? eeerrr. =S
i dont even dare to even just THINK about it.

moving on.
for teacher's day, went back to Pasir Ris Secondary School, to see our teachers. and boy, they have a whole lot of new faces, plus the teachers that i already knew, its either they have gone skinnier, or my eyes need a new pair of glasses. hmm. and so, me, phir, fred, isma, itah, izah met up and have intentions of just tasting the school's food once again. but unfortunately, THEY WERENT SELLING ON THAT DAY!! how sad. but, me, fred and phir managed to eat our next favourite item, which is the sandwiches! uhm, plus new items. heh. so yes, phir also took that chance to ask our school's principle, Ms Cheng, for support and help for his WCG.
so then, we decided to have our lunch at Food Culture. and it feels so good to be around them...feels like us in the secondary school days, except we were all wearing home clothes. and different hairstyles. lol.
after lunch, we girls head to Changi General hospital to visit Itah's dad who has been hospitalise for quite some time now. (sorry babe. hope you're coping well, and remember what we said of going for the check-up k?)
and straight after that, rush home, grab my clothes, and off to OAC.

last training was GREAT! we played with mud in the field. heh. and, we've already announced of the new committee members of 2009. CONGRATULATIONS to all of you! prove us that we have made the right decision k? (= we end super late. around 8pm? me and the rest of EXCOs just have so much to explain to the kids and remind them of the upcoming events we'll be having..blah²..
and upon reaching simpang, that's where the bouquet of flowers come in. (: thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!! heh.

weekends.
saturday went to Johor with family. imagine 6 people squeezing in a 5-seater car? hah. yeah, that was what happened. we went to Angsana, and had super heavy yet delicious dinner of seafood near Danga Bay. then, spent my sunday with ajee. it was super special. i love every moment spent with you, hun... :)
okay, honestly, i'm out of words now. so yeah. enjoy your Ramadhan people!! chiqa out!

we love Mr Hari sushi delight, kak ana & kak ain


the most precious gift
wedding; adnan's brother's wedding








lecture room!

ajee's candy!

kenny rogers with hunny!
singapore flyers
wando&ahzrin! first book-out session! hah.

he's clueless
shoppiinngg ajee tauu
lunch at treehouse in msia



the gifts that hun-hun bought me






roxy jeans

best wishes to all fellow Muslims! may this Ramadhan be a blast. (=