i have got other posts that i've saved as draft due the to pictures, and the laziness feeling i have to continue. but just make do with what i'm blogging now first ok? :)


so after a long weekend, and my self-declaring HOLIDAY, i finally am ready to get back to my books. exams is just around the corner, and i have a lot to clear and catch up. i need to have more study time man! heh, back to business. ehem!
so anyways, the real reason why i'm blogging now is because i'm actually feeling a little upset. not knowing who to talk to, my blogger is my companion to listen or at least KNOW what i have to say. i dont expect any comments from you people regarding my problem, but i'm just blogging to let out some things thats bugging me. so shut it, if u know u dont have any rights to console, or even trying to "understand" me. I MEAN IT!


you know how, when sometimes boyfriends/girlfriends can be such a pain in the ass some times? might be because of just anything? well, mine's different. him being a "pain in the ass", not meaning a really pain in my ass. but a GOOD pain in the ass, actually. as in i know how scared, annoyed, concern, and how strong his love is towards me, but some times, the words that come out from his mouth can just be as hurtful as stepping on a long, sharp, pointy nail. but at the end of the day, i can not help but feel sorry and bad for some times being too harsh, or unreasonable towards him, cause all the things that he did for me, is just too great for me to even be mad for long hours. but for me, me being mad and some times a little unreasonable is because i want him to understand that i'm hurt....and even if it might be the slightest thing, but that slightest thing might some times be a big deal for me. because i want him to get the message that i mean it when i dislike some thing. and i thought, it would make him clear. i just..dont mean to be such a party pooper, or a wet blanket, but...i guess i'm just too fragile. so, babe, if you're reading this, i want to say how sorry i am okay? for the things that u wish i would do for you, or even to the things that i can never be for you. you mean the world to me. you know that. keep listening, i love you..