kak ida : "eeeeyurr! NEVER! i'll never say that and i'll never love you!"
my typical hot-headed, but nice, second sister never have any kind words for me. we would always just end up bickering, and wrestle among each other. we behave like "brothers", instead of how sisters should behave. at first, i find it quite weird though, but i grew out of it. i learn to accept it, and learn to think that its her way of showing that she misses me or loves me. (:
but i know, deep down(wayyyyyy deep down) her, she loves me as much as i do, only that she rarely, or should i say never, show her feelings at all. okay, okay. i wont be as mean to say NEVER, but it has happened, but only just once or twice in my lifetime that she EVER show me her "nice" side towards me. and i tell you, i would be all smiling everytime she does that. :)
anyways, my point is to talk about what happened just half an hour ago.
i was doing my revision, until i realised my pen is running out of ink. and i hate it if i'm really in the zone of studying, and just some thing would be amiss. so i went out, humming towards Taylor Swift's song, Teardrops on my Guitar(my blog song), all the way, with my mind full of thoughts...and i continued walking as it was safe, and GREEN man, to do so. only a few steps after the arc of the path, the next thing i know, i felt a cold metal thing. and that thing happened to be the rear of the taxi. when i snapped out of it, the first thing that came to my mind was Ajee. i turned my head towards the taxi driver, and he was all cursing me and shaking his head. i continued walking, and that was when i suddenly came to think, what if..tomorrow never comes for me?
as i was continuing to walk towards the bookshop nearby, from my family, to friends all came rushing in my head. i list out all the IFs things in my mind. and i started to have the shivers that i might leave them unknowingly one day...
but i am very thankful, that i am still here. syukur, alhamdullilah.
& as i'm typing, this was what i received just outside my doorstep.
& this was the other day's flowers he got me as well.
i was just looking through my pencil case, and i found this. i scanned this, and it's currently on my blog, because i want to remind that person that i have never stopped thinking of him. iloveyou
labels : appreciate your love ones while they're still around. do not be afraid to be open and express your love.