when i have my heart and passion in something, i do not wish to let it go. certain things that i do, might be the greatest mistake of my life, but the small percentage of what i did, was the proudest moment yet.
where am i exactly getting at for this post?
indirectly, to whom it may concern.
it can be hard pleasing the people whom you really care and love most.
take my mum for an example.
she can be the most difficult person to deal with whenever we talk about this little "trusting" issue.
obviously mothers have always been protective for their children. maybe she needs time to understand that i am now an adult. i'll be turning 20 next year. and currently, i am really not sure what i'll be doing then.
i understand that i have been pushing my friends aside, and drifting away from all those laughters that i should have shared with them. for certain cases, i do have my reasons. believe me.
i am juggling. with my very hard-to-please boyfriend, friends, school and family. i love all these people, but maybe to most, i did not do a very good job in showing my truest emotions yet. but with all my heart, i very much appreciate all of them. them, who have been supporting me, and giving me courage to do things that i thought might be impossible.
things have definitely been difficult for me, just pleasing people all around. as much as i hate keeping things, i thought it might be worth it for some things. just to see smiles, was all worth it. the effort and time i have been putting in that, hopefully you'll come to realise it, sooner or later.
i got nothing else to say. other than having difficult time these week. hopefully, after exams, things would turn around for me. luck to all for just anything. :)
♥i know how shitty your feelings can be some times with some things i did that u are unagreable to it. but sometimes, u need to listen to the voices around you. starting with mine? i really want things to work out nicely even when we argue. but please not the other way around. i am and will never give up on you that easily. i know it can be possible, if we both put our mindset to it. we got to open up, and start trusting each other. i am not prepared to lose you, but are you....?