i could no longer control my temper anymore.
the mood swings is KILLING ME.
and i just hate it as much as he does. i have been saying "it's ok", and "calm down" to myself far too many times. and i feel heaty everytime things does not go my way. sounds selfish? i know. but hey, this is me. you give me shitty attitude, eventually, you'll receive the same.
oh, NO. dont get me wrong. it's not revenge. but its my kind of "personality cycle". i can TOTALLY be as patient as you want me to be. but when the wire snaps, oh please. DO NOT TEST ME.
you want me nice, i can be your bestfriend. but when you've gone too far as to be UNnice to me, well there you go. the same you'll get.
this is no fun at all. reminding, and telling people how much i HATE people who just think that they're ALL THAT when they're just a piece of THRASH. oh yes. i fuming mad!
you would see me all smiling and saying "i'm fine" everytime you ask me whether i'm okay. but deep within, i am sooo not FINE.
oh people. when you read this, don't get offencive, cause this is practically my blog, and my say. i bitch what i like, and i fcuking don't care if you even think this was meant for you.
don't say "ouch", ask yourselve why.
when i call you my friend, i expect you to say the same too. when i gave you all my trust, i expect you treasure it like how i treasure you. you know having someone to hate you is disturbing, but what more the person who hates you feels like?
and so what i have been missing some things for a while. hey, that love i have for it/you/them doesn't change. it is always because of some people or some thing that made you lose passion in that something you once look up for. you're annoying and stupid.
and so what if you're so called someone/something-important-in-my-life. that doesnt mean i can be step all over. so what if you're an elder, that doesnt mean you can shout, scream and fuck me whenever you like.
so what if you're lovable and innocent, that doesnt mean you're likeable.
and so what you're sorry, that doesn't mean it's over..
you're asking me whats my point? there's none. it is whatever i feel like i should say to you. either to assholes, jerks, bitches or a god damn motherfucker. to whom it may concern, assholes.
You lose, you win.
when you win, you ought to lose something, eg something close/dear to you.
even when you lose, you would win something, eg friendship/family/friends..