Her story.

second sny

2011-09-25T12:19:00.001+08:00

Second SNY today to Hongkong! Hopefully it'll all turn out smoothly. 

22nd birthday

2011-06-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

I had the most awesome birthday yet! Alhamdullilah. :)
I feel blessed for hving so many ppl that rmmbrs n cares abt me. Amin!
Got to sleep now. Work tom. Haiya!
Prolly last day tomorrow anw!  night!

Bloated with affections,
Chiqa

simple saturday

2011-06-05T02:06:00.001+08:00

Today, me and ayang had a casual date. Met iqah n alip, fa n haidi aftrwards.
Js small talks and went our seperate ways.

Darling's been day dreaming alot. im sure it's stressful being him. I really sympathize him. But its okay. He's a different person now. Handling matters calmly and slowly.
Hopefully things will be looking out better for both of us. :)

Gonna sleep now. Going JB with Ab and fam later.

Exhausted,
Chiqa<3

date with darling

2011-06-01T23:46:00.001+08:00

Had the most relaxing day with my dearest today. Both took leave js to have a day by ourselves since the last time we had that ws new yr's eve. :)
It was spent moderately. Went to settle sm stuff for Ayg, get mc for NS, then faxing, then off to my medical check up, then brunch and then movie. Having many plans for a short day, we forgot abt renewing Ayg's passport. Lol.
Well he's doing it tomorrow. :) he's lucky cause he's in the aftnn shift.

Well im gonna sleep now. Its late and im bushed. Exams results are out. Im reaaalllyyy hoping that i'll pass. Oh well. 29 more days and im out of SAHGPL. good night world!

Tensed,
Chiqa<3

alhamdullilah

2011-06-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

God's praise, i made it through.
Tomorrow gonna go for medical check up. And if all goes well, insyaallah, i'll be starting my new job and career in July.

I am content and extremely psyched to start. :)
Gonna also spend the whole day with my ayang. Alhamdullilah..

Happy goober,
Chiqa

sigh

2011-05-27T22:17:00.001+08:00

Had a terrible argument with adib just now. Im all lost and unsure of what i'm supposed to do.. Many things are running in my head, n im trying hard to fight it..

I really dont know if i should stay.
I'm hurt. But i love him.
I'm scared. God, please help me.

rough day. rough rough day.

2011-05-26T23:08:00.001+08:00

Well, for the first post since i dont know how long, i have to start blogging about something upseting.
Ayg's car's been summoned by TP. Just as i stepped out of the house, ayg called me and told me the bad news and managed to vent a quick frustration to me. And it wasn't exactly how i intended to go to work on a thursday morning with. Oh well.
But whatever it is, i believe things happen for a reason and i hope darling's able to see the brighter side soon.
At the same time, i feel sad for him, though. =(
I couldnt concentrate much at work, and i had no appeatite to eat during lunch.

Anyway, i wish i could let out more, but i'm working tomorrow morning, and need to do some research and prepare myself for saturday. Yays! Hope evrything will turn out well soon. (insyaallah)

Bushed,
Chiqa<3

=(

2010-07-19T16:43:00.002+08:00

you didnt even realised that your hurting me so bad.
im just living with a poker face. sigh.

cause i miss you

2010-07-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

its been so so long since i last updated my dusty blog. afew times, i wanted to, but somehow i just feel lazy.

i have the sudden urge to blog tonight. i thought maybe i have expressed enough to my friends on how i am doing so far. to the eyes of many, probably they would think i am doing okay. but deep within me, i am hurting... so so bad. i have given every bit of my love to this man, and thought maybe, i could just settle down with him. surely, there has been so many rough patches, but still....i thought that brought us closer? i know how i shouldnt be so demanding, and sometimes, overlook matters, but...have i not expressed my love enough? or am still too young and naive to understand all these? i know how they say women are complicated. but complicated or not, to most women, they give their full dedication when they know they have found the right one. i know most men, are the same as well. but i just dont understand why the other half of those men, take women's love for granted? im just saying this in general though. but i felt that, maybe i was the one who took things or him, for granted. i wasnt appreciative enough, or maybe im just a dumbass who thinks she's always right? i dont know..

God knows just how many times a day, i just wished i had the guts to pick up my phone, call him and say, "hey how're you? do u know just how much i missed u? and that ur always on my mind?". or maybe just pretend all these shit hadnt happen at all, and that i would just say, "yg, u tgh buat ape? i love u very much". i'd like to see the reaction on his face! haha.

so i can think of all the possibilities and the craziest things.. but that doesnt mean i would have the guts to do so. well maybe once or twice, i almost did it, but then i think again... he might just be happy with someone else, and that my appearence would just make things complicated or make him hate me even more. maybe thats not a bad idea at all, aye? let him hate me for all his life, and then coincidentally found out from a friend or something, that actually i have been secretly still in love with him...? hmm. okay no. that's too dramatic. i doubt i'll manage to survive that long. the only time i would probably do that if he's the last man on earth!

i am probably still living in fantasy thinking that all this will soon tide over and that we'll be together once again. the funniest thing would be, i hadnt really lost the feeling i had for him since the day we broke up. he's probably the sweetest mistake ever. having to experience a (almost) 2 years relationship with him speed up the process of growing up. since i was 19, we were an item. i was suddenly a woman.
although, the many friends that i "thought" i lost, (which never was far) i have never actually regretted every single moment of having to know him, or loving him. i will never forget who has brought us together. (beside God, definitely) all these memories... does he really expect me to forget him or rather, find someone better? (he claims) urgh. i feel so fucked up. losing him is like losing a part of my body. sigh

i dont know how people do it. being optimistic and stuff. i mean, i am totally impressed, sure, but it makes me wonder and see myself as such a very soft, WEAK person. this "getting over him" process is really taking its own sweet time. i might just resort to suicide someday (ok seriously, no). but! i might? ok no. its a sin. haha. sigh.

i wish God really has a better plan for me. cause what He's making me experiencing right now, is a real torture. please God.. i hope and wish (you know what), that i'll manage to pull through this obstacle that u have set for me. and hopefully, walk into the right path, and just let me live moderately happy. i wanna gain some weight, have a bright future, and just surounded with the people that i love most. (particularly him? no?)
i thank you for this

i dont know when he'll get a chance to read this, but i hope you're doing well. you're all safe, and happy. and get all the things you desire by now, and also.. forget me not? i know one thing fo' sure i'll never be able to forget you, probably like forever? and and, hopefully, i'll still love you as much. hope to bump into you some time. hehe. and yes, i love you. :)
so to end this long emo post, here's a song that suits the mood right now. Usah Lepaskan - Taufik Batisah aka cutiepie

1st paper of the month

2010-04-01T10:04:00.000+08:00

well, here it is. the day has finally come... EXAMS!

i will be sitting for my Economics paper later at 2pm. a 3 hour paper, gets me wondering how tough, thick and bad it's gonna be. okok. POSITIVE! hmm.

well for now, i have almost everything up in my head. i hope whats currently still fresh in my head is able to help me sail smoothly in my paper later.

next is MATHS paper. the subject that i used to hate since young, will be on the next week, Tuesday. and i dare not even think or mixing up that with what i'll be facing later on. anws, i've been trying hard, and i hope everything will soon pay off. thats about it for now.

good luck to me! ♥

are u ready?

2010-03-29T03:11:00.003+08:00

somehow i am so ready to sit for my papers and just get it over and done with. i know that probably sound both good and bad, but i am soooo eager to lighten my burdens. i am so hoping to do well, but at the same time, it's a little hard for me to get myself fully prepared, especially when i cant even log in to my own school's student services to get notes or print past yr's papers. sooo much hassle!

ajee's leaving for Batam for business purposes on the 2nd. just the thought of not having my "backbone" around for dont-know-how-many-days, weakens my spirits. BUT, i know i just got to suck it up some way or another. booohooo!

anyways, just now, had fun going out with ajee's friends, also known as "khakis", well not really the full strength tho, but still, having that few people hanging out, is just enough. hehe. went for some ice cream at Island Creamery at adam's rd, then we head down to Arab st for dinner and sheesha, and then to ecp, for prawning. never once, going out with them doesnt involve "spending". hahaha. but somehow worth it lah. managed to finally hear and see Aziq talking and running around and being ever so friendly towards me, just brightens up my night. having my beloved beside me, and laughing out loud as if there were no worries (or exams), is just so nice and free. but....fun nights always have to end. super lame.

i really dont know what im saying. im so thirsty. and currently, its 3:07am. i still have a few left to revise. i wish i was studying at MDIS. where my "people" are all there. at least MOST of them. so that i wouldnt have to bear with all these "other people" drama. majorrrr lame. ahh. whatever. i got to move on. hehe.

29 APRIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PSYCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

current mood: super tired, but HAPPY! :)

the flu

2010-03-26T12:51:00.000+08:00

i have flu when i woke up this morning. i had planned for a fresh start today so that i can focus better on studying. but i guess plans doesn't really go your way sometimes. and having this flu around, is not making things any better. i got 6 unit left to re-cap. gosh, i really hope i have enough time...

Ajee's been busy at work, and i really pity him, for working till late night, as late as 11, till he knocks off, due to loading out of his project. but i feel blessed tho, that despite all, he still manages to call me every now and then to make sure that im doing okay. hopefully right after saturday, he'll have a short break. and i know exactly just where to bring him. :)

well currently im all alone at home. soon mom's gonna be back home for lunch. i've been feeding myself with "khong guan" creamy chocolate biscuits. they're SO good. and i dont even know why im blogging about the biscuits. well, i probably need to shower so i could get rid of this flu? worth a try perhaps. well, if i really keep on perservering, i prolly could get thru with this revision, do some past yr papers, and get on with the exams. :) only roughly 8 more months to go till i graduate. (PLEASE hang in there, rasyiqah!!) no matter, i must give my all! april, im soooo excited for you!! :)))

till then... much love diary. :)

say no to food?

2010-03-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

my appetite's getting much better now. and my focus on my studies, alhamdullilah, is all good now.

a piece of good news today. ayuni will be working at my workplace and starting today!! i am SOOO excited!! i need some girly-girly time, and having her working at my place, is JUST what i needed. especially when ur facing the computer for 6 hours straight, u need some good old pal to have a good laugh with after stressing for long hours! hehe.

darling's been a dear. fetching me from work everyday, and not making any "trouble" lately, which is exactly what i needed for now. i have more important things to prioritize inside my brain right now. and arguments and dwelling, is not in the list. thank you love..

though now i have just one thing to stress about.... my hp bill. struck 400+ this month itself. -_-"
though my parents know, i wouldn't dare ask them to help me in paying for it first. i know they're quite hard for cash themselves after 12 days shopping spree at Turkey. lols.i wouldnt blame them though. they have brought back so many great stuff for me n my siblings. so i hv to rely on myself... and im wondering how. pay's not coming in soon, i think. geessh. :(

tomorrow there's the 2010 new committee member for the OAC in ite simei camplight event for Jan intake camp. i really wish i could make it, but for certain reasons i couldn't. reason being....i dare not to, and also i got an ice-cream date with Maj tomorrow. hehe. but i do hope for the best for this year's batch. :)
speaking of OAC, how i miss those time when i was a camper.... so much fun and freedom. no stress, just play hard. oh well....

i know im a little over the place in sharing my piece tonight, but it's all i can remember. kindda lazy and tired to put it in sequence or so.. :) well, gotto get back to studying.
till tomorrow...

ps: i love my personalize theme on my Mozilla firefox now! super cooollll! :) ♥♥

haven't been yourself lately?

2010-03-22T13:56:00.000+08:00

i've just eaten, but i am still so hungry. but whenever food is right in front of my eyes, i would quickly tuck in, but halfway through, i'll be full. and now, been just half an hour, im already feeling hungry.

i've been so tired and exhausted lately. i must say not many things have been going my way lately. i felt misplaced, and sad. i just wish that, exams would be extended later. im always so lethargic and cranky. i really want and need a break.. but, time's just hasnt been on my side.

i've recently started working lately. probably a mistake to start now, but at the same time, saves me from the earful nag i kept having from my mom on how to pay my phone bills every month that hits a hundred. and this month....oh, you DONT wanna know. -_-"

i've been away alot. i know. the past 2 weeks, my parents went for a holiday at Turkey. (i know, fun right?) and it was awful, i tell u. the fact that im already this skinny, not like im starving myself, but becos of my car practical and bike practical, all of my allowances vanished in an instant, investing on them.

i wanna be happy.. but i dont know how to make myself happy. even if i could list that few things that would probably make me happy, either i couldnt afford it, or there's just no one spend the day with me, or just dread the thought of having to get up and get ready. i feel so sad on seeing myself this way.. why am i so depressed? i probably need an ice cream. gosh, i just need a break.......

mood: depressed. & at the skinniest point of my life! EVER. =(

busy bee

2010-03-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

meet my newest addiction, AMANI. isn't he the sweetest?? he's just simply adorable! laughs at almost anything. he's 5 months old, and he's already learning so much! and so, where have i been gone? this (at picture). i've been seriously busy. with hanging out outside.i just needed a break. it's heaty, and im just exhausted thinking about school. i know this is not the right attitude, but too many things been bugging in this mind of mine.

i need that "them".... i think i'll be the happiest chick in the city to get my hands on "them". wondering what it is? hehe. it's a secret! :P

during these 2 weeks of disappearance, i met Farhanah, the Khakis, Aishah, Laode, and Elroy. and just just now, i met my sayangs. Ami, Naddy and Kimmy. when u need some laugh, they're just the perfect people to go to. :)

Im having my study break now. Exams are coming, and im soooooooo nervous. March and April...gosh, too many plans up ahead. parents are going Turkey soon. 12 long days! dont worry mom, ur lovely daughters will be "angels". khekhekhe.

well, gotto go and take my typing test now. ♥ diary! :)

bright side

2010-02-26T15:41:00.002+08:00

things are looking pretty good now. im just looking at all the positive side, rather than all the negative energy. i am meeting farhanah later and bby fino. update later! ;)

backstabbed

2010-02-24T15:49:00.000+08:00

baik ah. orang2 yg aku pikir KAWAN tu smer backstabbed aku eh. thanks ah sia korang. puik.

my group mates, submitted "their" project and didnt even bother to explain WHY. im halfway done in doing the 2nd article, and all i know is, i checked my email and in the email stated, "submitted". i was like, thanks alot man. sigh. i gotto get out from here. OUT

bad flu

2010-02-24T01:31:00.000+08:00

im having a very terrible flu. oh gosh. i kept sneezing for like thrice in every 15 minutes the whole day. yes, that terrible. i just ate some flu med, those drowsy one. with that inside, im sure to knock out pretty soon. im just drinking alot of lukewarm water now and vapodrops. -_-"

im currently doing my project. seems to move a little. i hope by tomorrow i can get everything done. i just hope this flu n slight fever would be all gone by tomorrow/later.

i met my "old-timer" hang out boys just now. laode, elroy, farid and taufiq. it was impromptu, but it was really nice to see them. only person missing is my little devil, ahzrin. :) yan(Laode) has been bugging me to set a date for a Karaoke session. insisting just him, elroy, ahzrin and myself. but with me the upcoming exams, and yan with his operation and recuperating period, we decided it'll be around March. which is what i told Erin(Ahzrin) too. these boys, have been through alot with me through my ITE, glory days. :) though short, we're as close as ever. all grown up and mature, except for roy, i am so happy that we're still the easy going and happy go lucky like how we used to during those days. i kindda start to sound like im so old. lol. we took some pictures just now. will wait for yan to upload. plus, my chingay photos, i've received, left to upload. will do it by end of this week olrite.

i so wanna see how we all are when we're 25. sure cool one! hehe. see who's engaged, married, with a long relationship... ahh, that's just so exciting!! hehe. applies to all my friends that i know. this might sound silly, but i really can't wait to turn 25. hehehe.

well, my Ajee has been a pretty dear boy. no words can describe how much i appreciate you in my life, hun. i will try to be more patient with things okay? thanks for sticking by me all these while, despite my imperfections. i ♥ you. :) gdnyte, diary.

the pressure

2010-02-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

i am stressing out real bad right now.

its like since morning, i've been staring at the computer and doing nothing with this project! i swear this project's structure look so simple. it just needs a lot of thinking. plus, i really know that i can do it, but its like my brain is not functioning at all! i just feel like something's not right. i am so angry at myself right now. my hands are all jelly, and my body feels so weak. sigh. im mentally exhausted...n i...just...can't....stop....THINKING...ABOUT....THINGS!! like why the hell am i feeling like this?

at this point of time, i really hate myself. for everything. i feel like there's not even a single soul helping me to get through all of this..
i am officially insane. please stay away. :(

despite whatever

2010-02-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

today, i start anew.

yesterday, i finally decided to give us another shot. so i agreed on accompanying him to the wedding. right after that, we head to Mustafa with few others just to shop and for the sake of traveling to somewhere.
we had a very long talk right after that, which probably explain why i have this baggage around my eyes. but nevertheless, it came to a good ending. :)

i cancelled my car prac today. somehow, i got to get my focus back on this project, and get as much as i can to get it all done, by thursday. like where has "focus" gone?

ajee's sister's warded this morning. she have this growth/lump on her chess, that needs surgery. hopefully eevrything's going to turn out okay.

till next time. ♥

hello

2010-02-21T07:59:00.000+08:00

hello, good morning world.

after morning prayers i just couldnt get myself back to sleep. there's just a lot of things running through my head.
the first thing i did when i woke up, i finally found my Lulu (Lumix) inside one of my adidas bags, that has been m.i.a for months now. its funny how i suddenly remembered where i put it. hmm. to so many occasions that i tried to search high and low for it, i just couldnt remember where i last put it, or whom touches it last. common suspects names and faces starts rushing in my mind. FIDAH!! -_-"
hehe, but my wrong. sorry sis.

yesterday's 2nd Chingay Parade, was just tremendously tiring, BUT so so amazing! every each one of us were so together and coordinated, well at least much better than yesterday, that there were so many smiling faces around us. and the crowd at the grand stand was just spirited and applauding us for every step that we took till the end of our route. me, fiza, mum, majjie, nurul and sarah, we were all laughing smiling and definitely, stupid noises came from me while dancing away. it was definitely one of those nights to remember. :) pats at my own back for the courage to do so.
after much exhaustion from all the dancing and "woohoos", and finally came to a stop, it ended with fireworks. i mean, who doesnt like fireworks? lol. when the girls have uploaded the pictures, i'll sure be updating it here. stay tuned! :)

okay, i have this job offer that Cindy proposed to me like few days ago, and she has been persistently asking me since. after much deliberation, i decided to go for an interview at her work place. im still a little skeptical about it, but i will just give it a shot. :)

yesterday he asked me whether i would accompany him to his friend's brother's wedding. i paused for a while. i didnt know what to say or do. if i were to say yes, i would be giving ourselves hope and another chance. but if i were to say no, i might regret it later. he did tell me how much he regretted yesterday. and so....i said yes. but i woke up this morning doubting my answer. have i really did myself a favour by saying yes? or should i just follow my ego, and say no? hmmm.

emotions aside, projects submission before end of next week. im dying of hunger and exhaustion now. please just kill me.

2010-02-20T14:46:00.003+08:00

please, can someone just kill me already? hais...............

go on and leave me.

chingay - 1st parade

2010-02-19T23:49:00.001+08:00

chingay was definitely awesome for yesterday's run-through rehearsal, as well as today's 1st-parade performance. i can't tell you how happy and glad i am to be participating in this amazing event, & especially at this point of time.

it was tiring, cause we have to wait for like almost 3 hours before we start perfoming. and the waiting part, is the worst! the weather's humid, plus the mood swing....not a very good way to warm up before dancing. we have to apply this thick make-up by make-up artists, but before we even start dancing, we're already melting. plus, our all-cover-up outfits, its not helping at all! & im telling you, our outfits, might be hideous, but thankfully, there are other's who's far worst that ours!! hahaha. totally painful to watch.
others, have this very drag outfits on them, and beautifully paint make-up on their faces. its like so so pretty! im jealous..most of us are. hehe. but its okay. after tomorrow, in the garbage you go! :)

i have Fir's brother's engagement this sunday, and im thinking of how do i get there, and should i even go. im preparing excuses to give to my friends. i cant afford to go alone...people will start giving the THE-LOOK and questions will start shooting at me. so maybe, i shouldnt go? hmm.

oh! i so wanna go to Universal Studios, Sentosa. :( can someone please bring me there? but i heard the tickets been all sold out. bummer!~ but still, if possible....i really wish i could go.. hmm. maybe some other time. :)
i just checked my weight, and guess how much i weighed now? 43KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just great Chiqa... sigh.

well, i need to shower and get back to my project, which i doubt i have any mood to do, BUT, i will try. so till the next time! ♥ you diary.

2010-02-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

i wanna sleep and never wake up, so that i wont have to deal with this crucial pain, every night before i sleep.

please, give me the strongest medication EVER for this sickness. im hurting. :(

welcome back, rasyiqah

2010-02-18T12:44:00.001+08:00

hello.

i decided to start back on my blogging. i need to let out a few things or so somewhere and somehow, and so i remembered this "dusty" blog of mine.

to start off, things have been pretty crazy these few months. oh did i tell you, im back in school? yeah. im back to books now. decided that i got to make something out of myself and also to show alot of people that im a learned person and not to take my physical appearence for granted. i want to work hard to pay off "debts" of my hardworking parents that has brought me up through so much pain. oh yeahh, i owe them wayy too much. its time that i become responsible, but first, i need to get my diploma first. i have plans. and yes, definitely, im so afraid if these plans might go wrong somewhere. but i will try. (:

i have been at the skinniest stage of my life, i think, EVER? my appetite has been seriously poor. just yesterday, it was amazing how i could live without food for like a day! i mean, its like fasting, but with additional 3 hours after breaking fast. and, i only ate 2 apples throughout the whole day yesterday. i was hungry, but i wasnt like famished. weird.
and just this morning, i though, "hey dont starve yourself just because ur depressed. go and eat something." so, at Geylang with daddy, i was spoilt for choice on what to eat. and when i finally decided what i wanted, and its time to dig in, not even half way through, im like, "ohkay, im done."
im not usually like this though. despite whatever shit happens, i would gorged myself with food! to ease the pain. but now...ever since that stomach flu incident i had the other day, i think im becoming bones. literally, becoming lindsay lohan. ew. gross.
but ah, i just wanna be myself. and im trying SO DAMN hard not to be negative to my own body. i will try to eat. at least, start with vegetables and fruits. hehe, well IF i could get this lazy ass off the couch.

mood, hasnt been too good lately. i just wanna cuddle my bed, and just sleep or watch tv the whole day. like why are break ups so damn hard? pfft. yeah ive said it. break up.
i dont wanna talk about it..

well, chingay's just this weekend. and im participating. (laugh all you want)
oh, fred's back! but gonna return back to brunei next week. *boohoo*, have a safe trip bro. and many thanks for tuesday!
well, thats it. i better end this post before i come crying again. oh this song,

is just awesome. it gets me to sleep. and to calm myself, and get emo every night. it works wonders if u wanna cry yourself out u know. recommended! especially for someone who's not a fan of Malay songs, this is pretty good. :)
have better days people, than i have been having. bye!

Salam Lebaran!

2009-09-22T13:49:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya, fellow Muslims! :)

2009-08-31T14:37:00.002+08:00

i was getting bored. and i posted this on Ajee's Facebook.

hehehehe.
okayokay. im so sorry darling. just want play a little joke on u. :)
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anyways, to some who probably dont know, today's my final day at working here, at the miserable Technics Offshore. it's been like almost 4 months already im working here. and time flies fast....
but its time for me to go somewhere else to upgrade myself.

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.

whats up work?

2009-08-26T11:51:00.004+08:00

im pretty bored actually.

though i have alot of things to do, (seriously, like my few last days at work, then i feel like i deserve to be called an administrator. LIKE SERIOUSLY! -_-) i would still take some time to do other things, like for eg, now. hehe.

well if you're wondering what's usually on my screen, imma show you a bit or two.

ok seriously. so random. bye

taggies

2009-08-25T16:04:00.002+08:00

TAGGIES REPLIED darlings

raudhah ► hahaha! i know right?? lol. thats funny. but whats wrong with ur job babe? mine's a bitch. =O

yaniiee ► nie, kau suruh aku relink kau, tap tak leave the blog name. lerrr. -_-"

ima ► thanks darla. love u :)

ayuni ► hahahaha. cam tauuu je aku dedicate tu post kat kau eh? heheh. anyways, sudahlah lah yuns....kau pey planning tak menjadi-jadi!! pasal kau dah buat budak² smer smgt, dorg plak asek tertanye2 aku bile nk kluar! mcm aku plak yg planner! hehehe.
but if it's for real, plan betol2 ok? :)

erma ► thanks babe. take care! :)

iqah ganj ► i know!!!!!!!!!!! and i love you tooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shifa ► hey babe!! its been so long!! lol. and yeah, it took me like 2 seasons of SI to finally have the courage to be on tv. lol!!

greatly spent

2009-08-24T11:16:00.004+08:00

okay, i had the most relaxing weekend EVER! :)

it was totally well spent.

well on saturday, was the first day of Ramadhan. And i actually felt like just bumming at home. Ajee wanted to spend time with his nephew and i kindda just wanna laze around at home. and it's kindda nice plus, it might sound weird coming from me to say this, but it was seriously relaxing. :)

then when mom got home, she wanted to make some Abok-Abok. which i helped her with. plus doing the Chin-Chao.

well then at 2pm, Ajee decided that he wanted to get some Kuihs. and he proposed, "Let's go Jb to get them!". and im like, "You serious?!". and we did.

so imagine. we went out at 3pm, and we reached home at 5.40pm. awesome kan?? hehe.

then relax all the way, till buke. :D

and mum, just know her daughters well. first day of break-fasting together, she cooked for us Ayam Lemak Cili Padi. OUR FAVOURITE! plus my very delicious Hot Milo, got everything set. :) but poor dad had to work though.

then on Sunday around 10 in the morning, we went to the Cemetery, and only got out from there like 2+ in the afternoon? then went to Jurong's Bazaar Ramadhan. and they have these superb atmosphere there. (i think better than Tampines one? hmm) and right after that, Kak Ana decided that she wants Terobok Fish for break-fast, which we all agreed on, and we head to Geylang Pasar Baru. then to Sheng Shiong, to Tampines just to get the fish. hehehe.

when we finally did, we all came back only around 4.15 at least. lol. then it was all the way busy-busy in the kitchen.

Ajee dropped by, and we all have the heart-iest break-fast + Wan, ever! :)

would be better if Ajee were to join, i think.

and right after break-fasting and Magrib prayers, me and Ajee head to Geylang, which we then bumped into, Dini, Fid&Fir, Ajee's friends...yadda...yadda... hehe. extremely fun. :)

i just wish that weekend wont end though.... :(

well there you go. Chiqa's weekends' activities of that week.

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN EVERYONE! ♥♥♥

for you

2009-08-18T08:34:00.003+08:00

dearest darlings.

i am so sorry to disappoint you but i only made it till top 40. didnt really make it that far. i wish i was still in Singapore Idol, doing my thing, getting into the top 24, be on tv though, but NO dearests... i only made it till TOP 40, not FINAL 24. :(

but i am so happy knowing that i have friends who would support me in achieving my dream. thank you pals and friends. i appreciate u so much. :) Loves!

Regards

rasyiqah♥

top hundred, SI

2009-08-14T09:58:00.002+08:00

find me! haha. o.O

i'm still not happy

2009-08-13T08:50:00.001+08:00

she's hated. and i so know she knows that.

may you rot, seriously. for thinking that "OH I'M SO COOL, I'M SO GOOD". oh Fuck you.

imma f-king turn ur life around. you'll see....

tuesday blues?

2009-08-11T08:54:00.005+08:00

it's that time of the week again...
eyh, it's tuesday? ahh gees. -_-"

i am soooooo tired and sleepy. i almost wanted to skip working today. but then i figured, its better that i make some money than doing nothing at home. so yeah. it's 10 of August today, and i'm still hating my job. i keep hoping everyday that maybe someday i could just slip away from this place...

anyway, last Friday was Ajee's 24th birthday.
he was so, so thrilled to see that i got him an....

yeah, it's an iPhone3G.
he's been bugging me for like 3 months, and finally, its all his. =)
i'm telling you, his reaction is classic. and i actually got it on video. but yet to upload. so will update on that later on.

well luckily, weekend was greatly spent. uhm, thats baout it for today. im so sleeeeeeeeeppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. and i still HATE my job. -_-"

anyways, replies to NANA & NADINE:
nana: uhm, well, i must say just the basics? like, toner and moisturiser before putting on make-up(Simple brand), then i use some concealer, some 3-in-1 foundation powder, Face shop brush-eyeliner, M.A.C. eyeliner and light blusher. yeah, thats about it. hope it helps? :)

nadine: haha! yeah, embarrassing man! but it's a good experience though. And thank you for the compliments. im sure you're lovely as well. take care!

♥broken

2009-08-06T10:54:00.000+08:00

thank you.

when YOU find YOU, come back to me

2009-08-04T17:26:00.000+08:00

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

bored to death

2009-08-03T09:19:00.004+08:00

i am currently at work yet i have nothing to do at all. please let me know if it's time to get out from here, and remind me to vanish forever.

i am seriously dying of boredom!

i would love to start schooling now, and have more time to sleep, than suffer like this.

it's not the job is bad or anything you know. but it's my first full-time job, yet i cannot even apply what i learn. i'm so pissed off and tired or doing nothing.

i wish it was like easy and cheap enough to pay for private school now. everything's looking so fugly!

hate.hate.hate!

where am i?

2009-08-01T17:27:00.005+08:00

okay, this is totally cool.

guess where am i??

I'M AT THIS FACIAL SPA! hahahha. near geylang.

mom's treat.

there's mom, me and fida.

wondering why i'm here?

well i'm actually waiting for my turn. and while waiting, they're like so nice enough to kindda let me surf the net while waiting for my turn u know? since they told me i've to wait for like half an hour or so? but hey! having this laptop to kindda fill my time, its totally cool. now see what i did!

okay, i think it might be my turn sometime soon. so imma just stop my update. bye!

random part II

2009-07-31T10:13:00.013+08:00

it's 10 in the morning and i feel so fucked up.
with this stupid menses cramps, and stupid fucking job. UGH.

yesterday, after work, ajee and myself we watched The Hangover in Wish.
the movie's awesome shit man!!

They were all just totally wasted. And by being soooo drunk, they actually forgot where they left Doug, the groom. haha. hilarious man....
oh, and the baby in the photo? HE'S SO CUTE RIGHT???? i feel like kissing those cheeks and bite them or something. ahh!
imma just watch it again today. hehe.

well, part 2 of pictures updating!

can i just skip this phase of my life, and stop when i'm like 30 or something?

very random

2009-07-30T08:42:00.050+08:00

i'm going to be very random today.

but first of all, hey! another boring day at work. -_-"

and i purposely reach late today. i just can't help it! i feel so handicapped!(no offense) like there's nothing for me to do, AT ALL! i feel so paralysed. sigh. stupid. stupid. job.

oh, on saturday, my sweetest, yet small-eyed-freak cousin, AMI, gave me and ajee 2 tix to NDP's preview. and on the same day, falls my cousin's wedding. yet i chose NDP. lol.

but the turn-out of the show, was truly lame. -_-"

and out of everything, i only enjoyed 2 parts, the FIREWORKS(definitely), and for the first time(at least tts what i think), they did this re-enactment of how terrorists and stuff were to harm S'pore, yadda yadda. but the way the army and police squad did all those cool moves, got my attention, really. it was sooo cool lah! hehe.

but somehow i did enjoy myself because i have Ajee as my companion. =)

okay, i really have to say this: I'm in one of the Singapore Idol's trailer teaser. and they took some stupid part among all the sentences i provided for them. i said; "PERSONALLY, I THINK I CAN SING". wahlauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!

i can die of embarrassment ok?! im so embarrassed. sigh.

plus, during these coming fasting season, ajee and myself has some plans ahead of us to venture into some small business. :)

which is kindda cool and exciting. :)

well one thing that got me perky and excited over this topic is that i'm always reminded of the KUIHS! oh kuihs.....delish kuihs.... they're just mouthwatering!

hmm. i love food. hehe.

and so we're gonna make our trip to Malaysia to get some ideas or stock for our mini business. please support! :)

oh ajee's birthday's around the corner. and im so excited! hehe.

so what else? oh pictures! imma update some pictures now. =D

please take me away...

i wanna go home

2009-07-29T14:27:00.002+08:00

i have been so free at work, and im getting sick of it.

Mom, get me that new job puhlease.

ajee's been at Keppel for like almost 2 weeks now, and if not for the chinese girls here, i would not have survived! i mean, its already pressurizing enough that i have to end up at sitting at the bosses area. and it super quiet, and im not needed to move about that much, and that i wish i cud just sit at home till there's something for me to do, u know?

oh gees. im going CRAZY!

plus, my GM's not gona be around any sooner. as he's at Keppel as well, and haven't been such a good boy in handling work matters, which i wont elaborate on it, and it's like a free world around here or something. people lazing around here and there. well, except for the finance, hr and SOME admin staff here.

it's frustrating. cause other days when i fast, i have to hold back these lazy eyes and just pretend that im busy, or read a book or newspaper. stupid, stupid, job. and at this point of time, i wish i was still schooling, or get a new hobby at least, and that i'll be getting paid as well..... =(

ahh. bummer!

GET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!

=(

2009-07-23T12:38:00.000+08:00

now this could be the last time you did me wrong.

be proud fellow Muslims.

2009-07-22T08:37:00.002+08:00

i received an email today and i would LOVE to share with the world on this. Please, spread this news. let him rest in peace. (i love you, MJ)

Subject: Mikaeel (Murder) Conspiracy

Michael Jackson (MJ) was known as the most loving person in the world. He gave up most of his assets for charity and all his life, he fought for equality of the African Americans, AIDS victims, Against Drug Abuse, Against Abortion, Against Child Labor and secretly channelled his properties for the hungry children of the world. However, he wasn't peace at heart. He always think of himself as a child trapped inside a man's body. Being Peter Pan is all his dream, never to grow up, forever a child. That inspires him to build Neverland - a heaven for children. Children of all ages and races are welcomed to Neverland. MJ had so much love to give.

However, he made a mistake which he didn't know of the consequences. He saw the peaceful life his brother, Jermaine (Muhammad Abdul Aziz) had as a Muslim - true, Jermaine faced so much pressure that he moved to Bahrain.

In 1989, MJ made a press conference which shocked the world, "I have seen the Islam in the life of my brother, I have read the books about Islam. And I'd love to someday feel the calmness and peace of Islam...."

Since that, MJ's life was never the same again.
He was accused of so many accusations against child molestation. MJ was not someone who can deal with much pressure as he is a 'delicate child'. All the extortion and black mail followed after that. Everything he did was being seen as wrong in the eyes of the Media. All these are to influence his fans to hate MJ. If he is hated, then he would not be influencial anymore.

For several years, he stayed in England. Getting motivation from a long time friend, Cat Stevens, who had converted into Islam - named Yusuf Islam. From him, MJ learnt how Yusuf had survived being Muslim. He made friends with a song writer, Zain Bhikha too, who wrote a song titled, "GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH", which he wanted MJ to sing whenever he is ready.

Following his trial, MJ withdrew to Bahrain, where he was the special guest of sheik Abdullah bin Hamad Al Khalifa, the son of Bahrain’s king. It was then that Michael began to give conversion more “serious thought.”
MJ stayed in Bahrain for approximately 3 years. He studied Islam, the prayers and learn to read the Koran (al-Quran).

Finally, he came back to Los Angeles and in November 2008 MJ had formally converted to Islam in a ceremony at a close friend’s house in Los Angeles.
He perform Haj with the King of Bahrain and son on December 2008.

He had a hidden agenda when he wanted to make a final comeback. He annouced in a press conference on March 2009, "This will be my final concert. I'll see you all in July...."

He planned that during his concert, he would announce that this is the FINAL concert as he wouldn't be performing anymore. He will declare that he is a Muslim and will only sing with Yusuf Islam and Friends.
At the end of the concert, he will be singing the song, "GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH" with Yusuf Islam. That is the reason why he chose London as his final concert venue instead of the USA. It was because he thought he could escape the USA's extortion, and that he could perform with yusuf Islam who is in England.

At 12.30am, 25th June 2009, he hugged his production manager and said, "After reherasing for 2 months, I am finally ready for the concert..."
Before leaving to sleep, he waved his dancers, "It was a good night everyone. I'll see you all tomorrow..."
The next thing... He was pronouced dead at 2.26am....

When 911 was called, there are so much questions asked. It is as if they didn't know who MJ is and where he lived. The questions asked are more towards to delay time.
The hospital said the autopsy result can only be obtained after 2 months - very illogical as even the worst African technology could obtain the result in less than 2 weeks.

MJ's family members opt for second private autopsy as they started to feel something fishy is going on. The result came out in about 4 days - MJ was drugged with high dosage of anaesthetic - drug that brings about a reversible loss of consciousness, if used to much could stop the heart from beating.

Another result which was not aired in the media was, MJ's stomach is empty of this drug, but his blood were filled with it - same case as the death of Marilyn Monroe.
The private doctors also found many needle marks, afraid to be forced injections given to MJ on his bed.

In CNN Live after a week, Barack Obama was interviewed. And he said, "I love MJ, I grew up listening to his songs. It is a great loss, but rest assured that there is no conspiracy in his death..."
Now, why must a President made such statement before the official autopsy result came out? How would he know that there is no conspiracy without the post-mortem result? Seems like someone is afraid of his shadows.

MJ was known to the world as a person who is against drug abuse. Why must he be addicted to drug, then? If he wanted to commit suicide, why rehearse for his concert? And why will he want to see his dancers the next day?

Enough about his death. I am sure people around the world is not stupid anymore. These supreme power can fool us during the Marilyn Monroe conspiracy, Martin Luther King and Princess Diana. But in this MJ's case, they left too many loopholes for those who think...!!

MJ left us with this unfinished studio-recorded song, GIVE THANKS TO ALLAH. You can download this song here: http://www.filefactory.com/file/ahb80ff/n/Micheal_Jackson_-_Give_Thanks_To_Allah_mp3

MJ's family was about to give him a Muslim burial with the help of The Brotherhood of Islam. But, the CIA showed up at Neverland's door - blackmailed them that if they do so publicly, Katherine (MJ's mother) would be pull off from MJ's 3 children's custody as well as MJ's estates. Instead, they'll hire Debbie Rowe for the purpose, and the court will be in their favour. So much for democracy and fairness...

Finally, they agreed to let MJ have a Muslim Burial in Neverland. But in condition, must show to the public a Christian Memorial Service, as to prove to the world that MJ was never a Muslim.

So, Staples Centre was just a normal show. That's why the coffin was closed and sealed.

MJ was buried days earlier. The Gold Coffin was empty. They were about to bury the Coffin according to Christianity ways in Hollywood - as in their deal with the USA Government.

These happened, because the USA is afraid of the rising numbers of Muslims in the world.

(Sheikh Ha**d)
The Brotherhood of Islam
Buletin of Bahrain

R.I.P. MJ

2009-07-08T11:24:00.003+08:00

LOS ANGELES – Michael Jackson was an entertainment phenomenon both triumphant and troubled, a dazzling performer who transcended barriers, transformed the music world and transfixed fans and non-fans alike in every corner of the Earth. But Tuesday's memorial was not for that Michael Jackson. Instead, those closest to the legend gave us a glimpse of Michael Jackson the man.

In a poignant and serene service, the portrait they painted was of a human just as remarkable, making his loss doubly painful to bear for those who truly loved him.
"I just wanted to say ... ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say I love him — so much," said Jackson's 11-year-old daughter, Paris-Michael, before dissolving into tears and falling into the embrace of her aunt Janet.

It was a deeply emotional moment, the most profound part of a memorial that accomplished what Jackson could not in life: humanizing a man who for so long had seemed like a caricature.
How could someone who moved like he moved, sang like he sang, and reached musical heights no person has ever touched be as human as the rest of us? How could a man who threw a wedding for Elizabeth Taylor, had a chimpanzee as a companion, and wore masks to cover his surgically altered face be any part normal?
How can a man who admitted he shared his bed with boys — though he maintained it was never sexual, as others suggested — be a decent man, closer to saintly than devilish?

It took those closest to him, from his brother Marlon to his old friend Brooke Shields, to explain Michael Jackson to those who saw him as a talented freak — an image that deeply pained Jackson.
So while Motown founder Berry Gordy talked about the child prodigy he signed at age 10, and pronounced him not just the King of Pop, but "the greatest entertainer who ever lived," he also talked about the little kid who played catcher during family softball games against the Gordys, who cracked jokes and frolicked in the pool. Magic Johnson talked about the perfectionist who made him achieve higher heights as a basketball player, but also told of sitting around and eating KFC at his home. And Shields talked about a friendship in which laughter was central to it all.

"We had a bond, and maybe it was because we both understood what it was like to be in the spotlight from a very, very young age," Shields said, fighting back tears. "Both of us needed to be adults very early, but when we were together, we were two little kids having fun. ... M.J.'s laugh was the sweetest and purest of anyone I've known."

For Jackson's family and the organizers of the memorial, it was a successful rehabilitation of the image of a superstar who had been derided for so long. The words "sweet" and "pure" had rarely been used to describe Jackson in the last two decades of his life, marked by allegations of child abuse, an ever-changing face, multiple lawsuits, eccentric behavior and what seemed to be one bad career move after another.
Only true Jackson fans, a number that seemed to be dwindling year after year, seemed to remember the man who dazzled us with "Thriller," made us swoon with delight with infectious grooves like "Rock With You" and "Remember the Time," and conversed with presidents, kings and queens.

Tuesday's memorial reminded us of that Michael Jackson, too. The universally revered and admired former South African President, Nelson Mandela, offered words of condolences and love for Jackson in a statement read by Smokey Robinson.
Rep. Sheila Jackson Lee, D-Texas, talked about how Jackson held court with African leaders in his bid to help slow the spread of AIDS there.

And Maya Angelou, who was also represented by her words instead of her presence, offered a loving tribute for the entertainer in remarks read by Queen Latifah.
"He took a pose on his toes for all of us," Angelou wrote, remarking on his worldwide influence from "Birmingham, Ala., to Birmingham, England."
For an entertainer known for his amazing music, song took a backseat to sentiment at the service. But when it was used, it was to great effect. His very biggest hits were not part of the program.
Instead, what we heard were the songs that reinforced Jackson outside of entertainment. Longtime friend Stevie Wonder — who summarized the thoughts of many when he said, "This is a moment I wished I didn't live to see" — sang his own "Never Dreamed You'd Leave In Summer," originally intended as a bitter breakup song but repurposed as a sad goodbye.

Lionel Richie, Jackson's collaborator on the anthem "We Are the World," sang a gospel classic, "Jesus is Love." Another gospel hymn heralded the arrival of Jackson's casket when a choir sang the lines, "Hallelujah, hallelujah, we're going to see the King."
Two of Jackson's songs underscored his humanitarian side — the closing numbers, "We Are the World" and the anthem for his charity, "Heal the World."

Usher's heartbreaking rendition of "Gone Too Soon," which Jackson wrote as a memorial for Ryan White, one of the early public faces of AIDS, captured the pain not only of his fans and friends, but of his family, as the Jackson brothers came together and gripped a sobbing Usher in their arms afterward.
And Jermaine Jackson's version of "Smile," which Michael Jackson had often used as a metaphor for his own tragic life, was a fitting epitaph for his brother.
But perhaps no one lifted up the image of Jackson more than the Rev. Al Sharpton, in rousing, church-like sermon that took Michael Jackson back from the tabloid headlines. Sharpton looked at Jackson's children and declared: "Your daddy wasn't strange — what he had to deal with was strange."

Extract from MSN's news.

Let us all relive the King of Pop's moments, despite all the rumours and accusations he has been living in. He is after all, the ONE AND ONLY MICHAEL JACKSON. Rest in pease, MJ, we love you....

i know this might sound crazy to some, but i love him. he has the greatest hits EVER, and he should definitely be remembered....

the beginning of something new

2009-07-01T10:14:00.002+08:00

i made it through. :)

i'll be leaving for a week for the "boot camp", and tomorrow, there'll be a short briefing of who-knows-what.

i was told to prepare 5 songs for the next audition. and im thinking of joss stone kindda song. hmm. in this short period, i cant be choosy with the choice i pick. moreover, work has been a killer, plus this menses cramps. i need time to learn the songs!!! =(

i need help.

ZzZZZZzzzzz

2009-06-21T07:30:00.002+08:00

i couldn't get myself back to sleep after morning prayers.

i guess i'm just too excited. hehe.
well, ajee's been so excited about today's outing with his old friends. plus, the khakis are throwing a mini get-together for me to celebrate my birthday. (isnt that sweet?) and kindda make me wonder if he's hiding smtg from me. but i think i rather he keep it a secret. =p

well anws, my 20th birthday is tomorrow! and i am so happy, even though i have no plans yet. but still happy to know that there's still some who remembers..

well, imma just update more soon. dad's home and brought back some pratas. hav a great day people!

updates: i may be going for a nother KOta Tinggi trip again! only with a larger group of people! family, and soon-to-bes! hehe. loves~

KOTA TINGGI!!

2009-06-15T17:10:00.010+08:00

this 2 days 1 night trip was just truly amazing.....

after almost a year, leaving behind the trekking days in OAC, not that i went to trek, was very refreshing. having to sleep in a true village place, adventuring in the woods, and late night walks in search of durians, was thrilling and exciting!
and its funny that i still have the excitement left in me. =p

on the first day, as soon as we reached ajee's aunt's place, we changed and dive in the seawater. it's a little gruesome, but kindda someting new, so what the heck! we then went to a nearest Kelong, and got some fresh fish and crabs and gong gong for barbequing. i cooked the gong gong, chacha and maj made some sambal and we scrape the fishes like true housewives. lol. it was tideous, but like i said, an experience.

at the backyard of the house, the family grew some chilis and lime. pluck some, and cook with them. Maj and Chacha loved the Gong Gong. it was something new to them.

while the girls are busy in the kitchen, the boys are busy with setting the fire for the barbeque. pluck some banana leave and wrap those fresh fishes with them. you can reeeeaaaaaallllllyyyyy diffrentiate the taste of fresh fish. delicious! heavenly! SUPERB! lol.

okay, imma stop yapping, and start with the pictures. click on the link below to see. enjoy!

part one
http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y50/babyiqah/Kota%20Tinggi/?albumview=slideshow

part two

http://s2.photobucket.com/albums/y50/babyiqah/Kota%20Tinggi/kota%20tinggi%202/?albumview=slideshow

Melaka next perhaps?

i love holidays! :)

graffittis:)

2009-06-11T14:02:00.003+08:00

my very annoying cousin, azmi, happens to be very bored with his DAMN life. and drew me this...

and then comes his fellow tag-team partner, hakim. who can never see people happy and ALSO wishes to be part of the "game", and so i gave his a gift, and drew him this.

why did i mentioned about "wrong haircuts"?, well he complained to THE WHOLE WORLD how annoyed he was with a certain AUNTIE he got his haircut done with. he kept saying, "bodoh sak ni auntie gunting salah...."....yadda, yadda, yadda... =p

ok SERIOUSLY. i am BORED. =(

ayang bring me somewhere far pls?

singing with the babes

2009-06-11T09:29:00.011+08:00

was yesterday awesome or what?

i had a blast with these ladies! too bad a few couldn't make it. or we'll be like the UNSTOPPABLE powerful girls, or something. =p

well, the girls met around 4.30 in the afternoon, while i had to wait for the clock to say, "GO HOME" at 5.45pm. the plan was to have a Karaoke session at Cuppage Plaza, Cashstudios. ajee and his friends(khairul, nazir & ain) also had plans to go to town as Nazir wanted to grab some stuff for his interview today.so right after work, after got changed and all, we went to Cuppage. and i reached roughly at 6.40pm.

the girls are just great fun to be around with. and things got crazy an hour before our session ends. lol. we had so much laughters till almost all of us end up having soar voices. out closing song was Gerhana SkaCinta. haha. like a mini clubbing lah our room. lol.

well, i'll just move on to the pictures.

squeeeeezzzzzzzeeeeeeee!

i call her, CAREBEAR! =p

the best buddies since like, forever? lol. envy them alot. =)

and just later on, i will be meeting Ima & Wani. as usual, CAN'T WAIT! =)

♥ajee be a good boy and tell mummy ok? thank you! hehe.

random

2009-06-10T10:11:00.003+08:00

well i got this from Cindy's blog. and i thought it's really cool, so imma share with you guys. =)

Let's find out just how clever you really are

Below are 4 questions and a bonus question.
You have to answer them instantly.
You can't take your time, answer all of them immediately.

First Question：

You are participating in a race. You overtake the second place person.

What position are you in?

Answer： If you answered that you are first, then you are wrong! If you overtake the second place person, and you take their place, you are second!

Second Question ：

If you are in a race, and you overtake the last person, then you are?

Answer ： If you answered that you are second to last, then you are wrong again. Tell me, how can you overtake the LAST person?! You're not having a good time at this! Are you?

Very tricky maths! Note: This must be done in your head only. Do NOT use paper and pencil or a calculator. Try it.

Third Question :

Take 1000 and add 40 to it. Now add another 1000. Now add 30. Add another 1000. Now add 20. Now add another 1000. now add 10. What is the total?

Answer ： Did you get 5000? The correct answer is actually 4100. Don't believe it? Check with your calculator!

Today is definitely not your day. Maybe you will get the last question right?

Fourth Question:

Mary's father has five daughters: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini, 4. Nono. What is the name of the fifth daughter?

Answer ： Nunu? NO! Of course not. Her name is Mary. Read the question again!

Bonus Question :

There is a mute person who wants to buy a toothbrush. By imitating the action of brushing one's teeth he successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and the purchase is done. Now if there is a blind man who wishes to buy a pair of sunglasses, how should he express himself?

Answer ： He just has to open his mouth and ask. He's blind, not mute - so simple.

it's awesome isn't it?

lol. i love tricky questions. :)

updates

2009-06-09T09:29:00.008+08:00

i'm just going to briefly update about what i have been doing these days.

well, besides working, ive been spending alot of my time with ajee's friends. like either K-OK, dinner, or just mainly hanging around.

the usuals would be, me, ajee, ajip, khairul and nazir. these boys are just a whole lot fun to hang out with. ajee and his friends are exactly like me, iqah, dilla, ina and rest of our clique. we throw the harshest(if there is even such a word) jokes at each other and still friends the next day. they're amazing... even if we were to disagree something, we would say it openly. and i simply love people who accept me the way i am and being such a sport. sometimes you need to loosen up, and doesn't really have to act your age. be cool. hey, there are no rules.

so anyways, i sure like to see these people some time soon; ima, iza, wani, phir, fred, anuar, moona, nad, ami, ahzrin, tyra, yana, JYPS people and just hang out with the OAC-ians. =))

i miss oac. lol.

and oh, i am eager to know when my next audition would be. and believe me, i still have some of the excitement on sunday's results left in me till today! i am soooooooo nervous, scared, but happy and excited! this is so thrilling, and i wish there was a word that could describe this mix feelings.

and tomorrow, i will be meeting these girls plus, zati and dayana tomorrow. can't waitttttttttttttttttt! =D

here are some pictures that i've been so lazy to upload or update. (=

*mom, can i go Kota Tinggi this saturday, puh-leaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!*

for a moment like this...

2009-06-08T09:11:00.002+08:00

some people wait a lifetime... =)

I GOT THROUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so very happy, happy, HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alhamdullilah, and thank you to those who has been giving me your kind support. (:

but not forgetting, the love of my life, for waiting, and standing in the hot sun with me, despite all the whining and grumbling for being drenched in sweat. i love you very much, azree. i have never met anyone like you....

am still waiting for the exact date of my next audition.

this is all too scary, but true!

luck to me!

the beat of my heart.

2009-06-05T16:03:00.003+08:00

heart's thumping real fast.

hope all goes well.

the sims 3

2009-06-04T15:57:00.002+08:00

i'm getting my hands on these hopefully today! yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the anniversary party

2009-05-25T10:33:00.005+08:00

ok. i'm feeling way too tired, and sleepy to even elaborate what happened on this day. so imma just let the pictures do the talking ok?

enjoy!

champion!

pak & mak busu.
the awesome sugarettes.

team 3.
team 2.
team 1.

haha. the sporty daddy-os.

k end. heh

congratulations

2009-05-18T10:58:00.001+08:00

many congrats to these 3 beautiful ladies:

Hidayah (January)

Nadheya (March)

Majidah (May) for being engaged to the love of your live.

chiqa not too soon ehhh. so stop wondering when! hehe. but i love attending weddings. =)

i love you

2009-05-13T09:14:00.002+08:00

10 Monthsary...

you are the beat of my heart,

the key to my love.

you promise we wouldn't part,

& all the negatives you shove.

i love you, i love you,

oh you bet i do.

let's keep ourselves steady & strong,

so that nothing would go wrong...

everyday wouldn't be the same if it weren't for you. =)

Happy Birthday!

2009-05-12T10:14:00.015+08:00

she turned 53 on may 3rd this year!

that morning started off awful. had a tiny tiff with mother.
but then slowly things started off to brighten up when Ajee decided to tag along. hehe. my fat, buncits boy! =))
then, the BIG sister decided to treat mum (& us) to Swensens! like, ANYTHING WE COULD OR WANT TO EAT. and obviously, we wouldn't stand on ceremony. hehe.

so anyways, we have our dinner at Parkway's Swensens. and there, we have some pictures taken and also the gift exchange.

right after that, we head to East Coast to have our next activity which is bowling.

so basically, there wasn't pretty much any activities or things to talk about. so imma just cut the chase, and start uploading the pictures. enjoy! hehe.

it's just funny how fast you grow a year older. =)

March '09 Graduation

2009-05-08T14:59:00.014+08:00

presenting, your Dream Girls.

i'd love to have some edits on the pictures, but i just dont have the time to do things i usually do anymore. my favourite tv programmes, MISSED. my favourite psp games, MISSED. my favouring Facebook games, MISSED. and dont even get me started on my normal exercise routines. -_-"

i no longer jog at least once a week like i usually do, (ok part ni tipu, memang sebelom keje pon aku dh lame tk buat gitu. hehe) the usual afternoons i woke up.....and i reallllllyyyy misss my friends the most! and of course, i will forever miss my ajee (despite working at the same place. hehe). =(

anyways, yesterday's graduation was awesome! i mean, not the ceremony part, the after part! where Izzati joined, and later Dayana joined.....just a whole bunch of hard-core-crazy bitches. haha. i'll never get tired of laughing with them. :)

plus, i get to see my Mooncake at graduation too! and stupid China Girl never turn up!

and i miss my babygirl, Yana, missed the graduation as well. oh wells.

Basically, yesterday's graduation was emotional. i didnt think i'd feel sad leaving that school. it's really not because of the food and stuff, whats most important is the friendship that i've made in that school. be it through classmates, to cca mates...it's just very sad to know that your growing up too fast. it's like, the next thing you know, your friends are working full-time. and then, the next time u see them, "hey you're married!". anddddd the next next time you see them, "omg, your second child??". haha.

but life, love, and friends are just wonderful....... =)

i'm just so happy and i really appreciate my friends alot.

i hope whatever misunderstanding, or complications, that has occured at any point of time throughout our lifes together, has already been forgiven and forgotten.

(in no particular order)

this is a note to all my friends, how meaningful life is with you around. be it, old or new friends, I LOVE YOU. =) & i'll miss you.

(btw, there are more pictures than this, but yet to receive. hehe)

i SEE evil

2009-05-05T17:29:00.003+08:00

another day, another bullshit.

oh hell, it's going to be devilish fun!

try me, you're dead.

2009-05-04T15:20:00.004+08:00

if i had a knife in my hand just now, i would stab you deep.

you're just a piece of shit. slimeball.

fucking around with girls seems good to you.

hurting families seemed nothing to you.

well, this girl right here. is still standing.....waiting for the right time to blow my top off right at you.

you're just making my gun poting at ur head, closer......and closer.................

i SWEAR you'll be at my mercy.

i'll protect my family, come what may.

see you!

2009-04-30T09:36:00.002+08:00

i'm meeting this girls today.

im excited! =)

money face

2009-04-29T14:11:00.002+08:00

ehhhhhhh gaji dah sampai dok!

now which idiot doesn't go HOO-HAA over money?

bebs, shopping lah sooyyy!

a whole load of CRAP!

2009-04-27T09:58:00.005+08:00

it's only been the 3rd week here, and i'm starting to hate my job.

i wont lie, i am lonely here.

i know i have my bf, but its different when u dont have ur OWN KIND to talk to. either work, or other stuff. the people here makes me feel small and helpless.

whats the use of studying, or having a cert, but not having people who's there to guide for you?

it's all bullshit and bias here.

let me highlight that, BULLSHIT!

i'm pissed. yes.

i dont mind being scold at for something i did wrong, but i hope to let the person who has been guiding me know, that he/she has been the ONE who teaching me wrong.

i know NOTHING of even to the littlest ways here. and its just right that someone at least show me whats this and that. goodness.

oh, im doing FINE, GREAT AND SWELL DOWN HERE, alright! sheesh!

sigh. but its alright.

i know i shouldnt be pointing fingers at others. i know its my fault as well. but it is just soooo frustrating that, i know i am keen to learn, but i have no one to lead me on, or show me. and that saddens me.

i guess this is the real world now.

the working lady.

2009-04-23T17:20:00.003+08:00

sorry that i haven't been blogging for some time now.

just started working at Technics Offshore about a week and half now.

being an admin cum secretary here is relaxing, yet fun. so to actually experience the real life of working and all, is very much thrilling.

i've been rejected by poly, and it doesnt matter cause i know there are other alternatives and ways to still continue studying. poly is great, i heard. but the school, doesnt matter. is the certificate that we carry matters, i think. and this job, is the next route, or pace in my life that i'm taking.

so far, i enjoyed my time here, and definitely looking forward for wider experience and knowledge to what i have been studying for 3 years in business.

i am, and will be pursuing my studies, my dream to own a diploma cert in Hospitality and Tourism, rouhgly next yr. i am not goint to stop doing what i want to do. i have my goals and visions in life, and i know i'll be able to achieve it. it's just a matter of time.

i'd love to elaborate more on what i have been doing so far, but time just doesnt allow me. i end up either hanging out or just sleep right after work. and currently, am at job, skiving for a moment or 2, to at least tell you people that i'm doing well, fine, GREAT! =)

doesnt mean i'm busy working, i forget my roots, my friends, and family.

sincerestly,

Rasyiqah Abdullah =))

secondhand serenade - your call

2009-04-08T12:34:00.006+08:00

(please stop beyonce's song first)

this is for you.

moving forward

2009-04-07T18:03:00.001+08:00

imma suck it all in.
and when the time is right, imma let it out one by one.

im taking things slowly.
not minding the disappointments i faced, i'll just be moving forward.

nervous

2009-04-03T08:38:00.002+08:00

i know whatever happens today at 2pm, i still have other plans.
and the people around me would still support me.
but now, the only problem is, do i really want it if i were to be given a chance?

bringing out all the positives

2009-04-02T15:22:00.010+08:00

results was yesterday.

and boy i did bad.
i had both Bs for this final sem. and cause of my first yr gpa/grades, even tho i should get something good, its still not enough. all i have to do now is wait for tomorrow Poly results.
im both looking forward for poly, and not. but hopefully, i get a thumbs up this time.

anyways, i have an interview and ajee's place next monday.
requires me to take passport photo, and i just have to laminate my certs. its not well taken care. lol.
plus, had a chat with Nadia at FB. and boy did we discuss ALOT! we talk about what our plans would be IF we were not qualified for poly and all, and how fun it would be if i were to get the job at darling's place and she were to join as well. lol. it was funny. that girl has been busy since like after we "seperated" from mcd's operator work or so? gosh. and moon's would say that she's saving up for her 3-storey marriage. lol.

the day before yesterday, went out with my babies. and it was definitely something to remember.
we might have missed out on each other quite a lot, but we the way we used to be like how old times was, has never changed.
isma had plan for us to meet at Botanic Garden for a picnic. its a great idea, but it was freaking hot especially with SOME DUMB IDEA of wearing BLACK DRESSES! lol. (but eiza's the BEST dress of the day! ahahhaa!)
there were SOOO much laughter! like even to the littlest things we would find it funny. especially me, that is. lol. itah brought games, and we played Taboo. it was my first, and i find it fun! especially if u play it with a bunch of crazy people. ;)
itah had to go off early, and it was only 3.40pm, so we all head to Vivo where itah is heading as well for her project, and thought of having dinner there. but ima and iza decided on just ICE KACANG! lol. i lost my appeatite, cos i was rather thirsty. then we bumped into hidayah n aisyah! gosh i miss that girl. :)
and so, we hang around around Vivo, and head back to tampines, while i head to simei to meet baobei ajee.
well, enjoy the pictures! =)

it was an awesome date.
hope we will carry the promises we make. :) love you all!

weekends greatly spent

2009-03-30T13:10:00.002+08:00

you know what i love?
spending a day with someone i love. and that is him, ajee.

on saturday, my racing boy decided to take a look at NEW cars. so we kindda went for "window car-shopping".
and this boy, decided on 2 favourite, catchy cars; Honda Civic and Integra.
he has come to terms that Bumble Bee has been great, but troublesome to maintain for being "sick" almost every now and then. It is roughly more or so 10 years old. and managed to find a suitable buyer to actually take Bumble Bee in hand. but at the same time, there was reluctance to let her go, as she was his first prize car. and of course, there was love.

the cars that catches his eyes, obviously are pricey. and it took us almost 2 hours just walking around, asking and all. but it was kindda fun. lol. i kindda learn something about cars. =)
we then had dinner at his favourite place, Mas Ayu, and hang around at East Coast. (=

on sunday, we had no plans at all! but ajee just kept driving until we had some ideas. so again, he thought of going to his friend's workplace to ask and know a little something about the 2 cars that he's interested in. and again, we spent nearly 1 and half hours probing. so i got too hungry, and u dont want me hungry. i get very grumpy. i cut the chase, and forced him to bring me to dinner. which we did, and we had long john silvers at Parkway, since we're nearby.
we walk around the centre after dinner and decided to play bowling at ECP!

we then head home.

*you are wonderful to me. =)

a boring break

2009-03-26T18:35:00.003+08:00

im dead bored.
i could easily turn into a fat pig by the same routine EVERY SINGLE DAY.

well, ajee has decided for me to work at his place as an administrator/secretary. which i kind of have reluctance as first but at the same time, psyched about having to work and see my bf every single day. but kindda tough to actually prove that im only there temporary. and its super hard to kindda find a job these days. (take a look at the papers, for instance!) and just thinking bout it, i wish my holidays were expand till the day i i got my results. OH SHIT! that reminds me! thats just days away! AHHHH! okay nvm about that. imma update some photos of the other day, where we had a class outing. enjoy! =)

*to my dearest defenders, thank you very much. appreciate it. =)

the awesome experience of Melaka

2009-03-25T16:31:00.003+08:00

no doubt, beautiful and awesome experience EVER!
thank you for making it possible.

seven

2009-03-13T18:21:00.002+08:00

today was the 7th.

it's a celebration, honey.
and obviously, many more to come.
i love you.

over the moon

2009-03-11T22:24:00.004+08:00

exams over, now its party time!

a possibility of going DOUUBLE O tomorrow.
and a vacation, next week. Malacca's calling me, baby! ;)

a little distracted

2009-03-09T20:07:00.005+08:00

i took a break, and i got distracted. AGAIN.

this is what i did when i have a hard time remembering the words that i just memorized.
though it might not be perfect, i love it. heh.

this is what i did, when i kept staring at my phone while finding the words that i memorized in my brain. im bored. really. yet excited and nervous for tomorrow's paper. well, luck to you all taking exams! =))

im extremely bored. i need a vacation!

just you and me

2009-03-03T17:37:00.002+08:00

its going to be days of just you and me.
perfect getaway.
can't wait, can't wait...!

trust me to trust you

2009-02-24T18:03:00.003+08:00

from friends to family, from family to bf, from bf to me?

i've been a little depressed lately.
this trusting thing has been going in my head every second of every day. it has been lingering in my head about some issues of past, reminiscing of things i shouldnt have said or done and how i really wish that things would be different.

having to juggle the family, and bf and school is a little hard now. pleasing is just very tiring. but sometimes, it is all i want to do. i know it is never easy to please ur parents, what more having to school and be in love? BGR problems that people face everyday is never easy to attend to. family that has little trust, thinking that things we do outside would always harm us, is just alot of headache.
having friends who think that u might just be lying to them all the time whenever u cannot do this or that, can be depressing.

i feel tight. like there's many people holding me down. it's like every step i take, eyes are looking at my eevry move.
while everyday gets tougher, expectations starts rising.
when expectations starts rising, it gives pressure a reason to come in.

i have lots to carry on my shoulder. i feel heavy all the time. the only time i feel safe is facing my computer all day, or cover myself with books in school. either way, i feel free for that short period of time. i no longer care if people thinks im problematic, or its always the same thing.
ITS MY BLOG. im free to say what i want, and what i think its right.
u have every right to condemn me, FOR ALL I CARE.

nothing else, just that.

spread the l.o.v.e.

2009-02-15T09:52:00.004+08:00

Valentine's Day was Yesterday.

6 Monthsary was the day before yesterday.
and for having said that, Valentine's was doubled.

greeted with bouquet of roses, counting 6 stalks, was the month we have been together. the sweetest approach ever. thank you for the lovely day. ily.

what i'd missed?

2009-02-13T19:14:00.003+08:00

i hate how i see things around me now, i admit.
or the right term would be, envy.

i see pictures all around the people who once shared few happy moments together, and how i could be in those pictures which i didnt, or how i was supposed to be there...and which i wasnt.
i missed all those adventuring moments in oac..
i would always feel younger, or even forgot that i'm always a day older everyday, that i would feel like a child who would be all crazy while playing with her playmates...
i missed all those gatherings with people whom missed me..
over smoothies, over meals, hanging out at malls, coffee shop, under the block...just everywhere..
i missed all those friday night lepaks..
the foolish, silly games...and not forgetting the gossips..
i missed almost everything that i used to do, or that usually people would see me almost everytime there..

and all for what? =(

if only things were slightly different....at least....days, things, life would be so great, so perfect... of which i could continue doing things i used to love.
i miss all those time with people whom used to make me laugh till i cried.
i never forget all this. i never had..
i just wish.......things were a bit different, and would go a little bit my way....

nothing without you

2009-02-13T08:21:00.001+08:00

time will heal.
happy 6 months.

Cocoa Tree

2009-02-05T08:13:00.002+08:00

I shall be blogging about Cocoa Tree today.

i am especially loving their Toblerone, Forrerro Rocher and other delicious chocolates. They have the best selling chocolates around and there's no other place that would sell everyone's favourite other than Cocoa Tree. check out their website for further information:

www.thecocoatrees.com

LUCK!

sorry

2009-02-01T15:26:00.003+08:00

to mel and other persistent readers of my blog, i'm really sorry for not updating.
reason being, i have been possessed by some lazy aliens.
this is not a drill.

2009

2009-01-02T19:50:00.004+08:00

the first day and eve of 2009 was greatly spent.

so i've been away.
after the KL trip, which partly why i am super lazy to update is because pictures is still yet to be uploaded or even received. so i kindda got lazy. (whats new..)

besides having super great time with family and cousins during those 3 short days, right after that, i had a chalet. which turned out to be superb at the very end of the night. some old dudes/dudettes came, which was awesome. i've also YET to receive any pictures from cameraman/woman for that night. but its alright.

so new year/new yr's eve? AWESOME. spent at JB, and it was really, really AWESOME. seriously.

anywaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, whats my resolution u people might be wondering? i REALLY have not thought about it before the actually day for "wishing" comes, but i alrd thought of some THINGS. one of the few things would be, GOOD GRADES, definitely....be much more hardworking in basically everything i do. like SERIOUSLY rasyiqah. u ought to work hard for the things you have been dreaming of day and night. heh.
uhm, pictures of KL will be uploaded soon. pretty, pretty lazy. toods, and HAPPY NEW YEAR! =)

BESOK SKOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY! HAPPY!

be mine, forever? =)

OFF TO KL

2008-12-19T19:37:00.002+08:00

hello friends!

i'm very happy today cause i'm going for a 3 days holiday with my family and cousins to KL! wheehee! I SO KNOW its going to be super short, but sometimes, the shortest time is the memorable and best time ever. so whatever happened, i am still going to just enjoy every bit of my time there, especially with people whom i have been with my entire life.

i am going to smile, even if i'm sad. i am gong to laugh, even if i'm at the verge of crying. so just chin's up people! and just have a time of your life with the people who deserves your time much more than the others who are just out there to bring u down. =))

happy holidays!

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REPLY TO TAGGIES!

nadia chua: hahaa.krane kau aku kene buat survey.hahas.aku da buat okay.weee...ade aku ikot kau.hahhas.dnt mind eh,*winks
okay, good gurl! kat tagboard mun, tkmu fanatic okay? haha. syg kau!

Aishah: kau pon dah jadi happy je ehk skrg. da tak sedih, stress mcm dulu je.. last long aite babe. n imy! tc*
Aishah: wahh2, seyy!
hahaha. thanks²! stress² ehhh. lol. u too, babe! rindu kau juga!

Yoyot: ika, shall we all go out swimming with the CSR gang?
Joyah: Hry tipah! How are u? hehe! eh, u going kl on fri eh? me too! are u on package or free and easy?
eh joyah nan yoyot same org kan? anyways, aku smbrg. kau plan uh. and kau pon gy KL? wahhhhhh. BLEY JUMPE!!! lol. bukan package uh beb. free&easy. pape msg ok kay? tc!

MOONCAKE: meet up soon ok?gue kangen banget samaa kamuuuu sih..
MOONCAKE: thanks eh cheeqa,appreciate that so much..& of cause having u girls is more than enough..u girls are totally loved..♥chiqaaa
mooncake: btw chiqa..pls plan for escapeeeeeeeee...
mooncake: haha,bloggy aku skrng tmpat minah2 luah kan perasaan..i ll complete my task given by teacher chiqa soon ok?=)promise.
hahahah. hey, i've done some things that might be off some help, i dunno. i was just giving it a shot. so i tagged fazilah. and thanks for doing the tag and ESCAPE BILEEEEEEEE???? KAU PLAN LAH PEMALAS!!!!!

sun: chika! you look like *mak mak* la with the skirt.
err. whoever SUN is, its kindda both hurtful yet funny ur comment. hahah. but, uhm, i trust my own taste? so, thanks for the tip, i guess. :)

aeriel: cheh!!!!!!! lazy kaper! hahahaha pandang rendah nampak :P hahahaha
phir, sumpah aku tk faham ape kau bebual. PLEASE EXPLAIN!! =p

AKU CINTA PADAMU MUHAMMAD AZREE BIN RAHMAT!
i'm in good hands, so don't worry.
i'll be good, yayang!

tagged by rabitah

2008-12-16T19:52:00.002+08:00

i've been tagged by itah. so here, darling.

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question which they formulated by themselves

Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending to other people

1. Do you have secrets?
OH DEFINITELY. i mean, who doesnt?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
already am. and i'm very grateful to him in many ways. =)

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
if it means, eternity, then so be it.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i dont know, really. cause....i dont think it's EVER going to happen. but if it really does, i would say.....a bungalow, for the family, and aside money for my parents to go Haji.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
i dont think ever.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
definitely, being loved by someone.

7. How do you define love?
simple. love is azree.

8. If a person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
erm, give up, really. why waste my time? (no offence, darling. heh)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
my boyfriend's presence, made a SUPER BIG DIFFERENCE.

10. What makes you sad?
Alot of things, really. but if ur asking me now, there's just one thing/person.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Old, and might just be uglier.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
my family, azree, and my endearing friends.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
i would say the same as question 12.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
if i were to be given my own answer, i would say neutral. if i had to chose either, then it'd be the 2nd choice.

15. What is your favourite colour?
ORANGE, baby!

16. If you fall in love with two people silmutaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
neither.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
i would, maybe. but it also depends on the other party.

18. What do you want to tell to that someone you love?
YOU ARE THE GREATEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

19. If there's a choice between lover and friends, who would you choose?
both, SERIOUSLY. no favoritism.

20. Do you believe there's 'True Love'?
i do. but it also depends on individuality.

5 people who's going to do this survey:

- ima
- azirah
- nadia'chua
- mooncake
- tyra

(i would put PHIR & FRED, but i know boys can just be plain lazy. hahah)

not bothering

2008-12-16T09:45:00.004+08:00

though i SAW some things. i won't be bothered.
and i'm told NOT to be.

just less than 3 more months, and i'm off from that school, that class, and those things. only certain will be missed, and only some will be remembered. the unhappiness will straightaway be deleted, and off from memory. there's nothing else like having good grades, results, successfulness than just weeping, and thinking of things that'll get me unfocus. if there's a need to ask or say, will be done so. i would rather focus on school. done.

i have AOA project to be completed. i'm very worried, cause there's alot to be done. though i actually know what to do, but when it's on my screen, i kindda got numb; blanko. but it's alright. i will do my best. =)
then there's PR project, which is like totally stupid. cause everytime there's a group meet-up, we will all be having brain-freeze. cause in the first place, the idea that we're given to actually sail off with, is stupid. something that is just a short research, and we really can't go any deeper. but we could just put words in our project, and some pictures to make it like an "effort" project.
cause all he wants is PERFECTION. and his perfection is UNSEENABLE. he wont give away like tips, and even if he did, it IS NOT helpful at all, and its just frustrating as we have to do it up to his standard which we dont even know what is! sigh. and recently, my group met up at National Library, having this thought that we could do alot, but ended up only much. we end up borrowing some advertising books, which i dont think will be off any help, but just maybe it would lead us to somewhere. i dont know. but anything is worth giving a try since our project is hopeless. so let's all keep it up, and make this sickening project WORK! =)

plans for today? supposedly yes, with 2 beautiful girls. but cancelled due to availability, and weather. but it's alright. shift to next friday! woohoo!

i am going to KL this friday. for just 3 short days. (OH COME ON MOTHER! I NEED A REAL BREAK!) i just know it's going to be a VERY short trip. =(
but mum promises that the next holiday, we would be going to SUNWAY LAGOON! hell yeah, mother! and ajee have been saying that he have plans to bring my family for a REAL holiday, maybe during CNY. hopefully eh hun? my life's getting really tight now, a getaway from all shits is really nice. pls and thanks! =)
then the sister also have plans for us siblings to go for a trip to Hong Kong. which i dont think will be happening since beginning of yr she told us to save or compile SGD 400. and just where the hell can i get that kind of sum now? hehe. BUT WE WILL, KAKAK! one day, someday... (=

alright. this is all i have for today. and OH. The Little Nyonya is really getting in to me. the suspense and all is just making me much more excited and keen to find out. if only Suria had this kind of spirit of doing drama series, or movies....it'll be a turnover, i swear. :)
okay, i'm famished. so toods.

what good is your heart, if you're not going to use it?
let's keep it this way.

days missing, i know.

2008-12-15T07:44:00.005+08:00

4 days missing, yesyes i know.

fiirrrrrrrsssssttttttttttttttt of all, i CAN'T SLEEP. super bummer, and annoying. -_-"
did my morning prayers and mum with the noisy flat voice like she did EVERY MORNING while ironing her clothes in my room. i happened not to be "dead-asleep", so i could hear everything she said and else i wouldn't have witnessed all that paiiinnnn. and so i ended up being awake. (partly bcos of u kakak! ur kain, mum asked me to alter this and that for her & u!) so what i first decided to do was to blog! hurray! =)

i am very much excited to tell or share with everyone how i spent my weekends, but it would be so much better with pictures right? but it's yet to be uploaded, reason being pictures taken was with my sister's camera. but i'll just give away the details. (=

so saturday. went to ajee's sister's wedding dinner at Tanglin Shopping Centre. and his sister was extremely GORGEOUS! from head to bottom, flawless i'd say. and i kept imagining and wondering how it'll be like if that was me in that wedding dress....hmmm. but of course, first thing first; i WOULDNT be as TALL as her, and second, the dress might just be too looooonnnggg for me. hehehe. gosh. and i thought i was KINDDA tall for my age. heh.
so then after dinner, head back to the bride's place and dammmnnnn there we tonnes of people here and there! and it was 9pm! nothing like rewang or something, all cousin united cause it's what as ajee would say, "my family members is always like this". chaos! i got super, super shy, and asked ajee to send me home. (party pooper, no?)
so sunday. THE WEDDING WAS A BLAST! even for a stranger to eyes of many people, i was very much happy with the ambience of the wedding.. and his sister in that hot red dress.....my goodness....there is no perfect word to describe her perfect-ness everywhere! i was thrilled and excited, and was very much touched..with the way she bring herself and just how soft and gentle she looks...how every single girls was looking at her with envy, which i had in me too. (my time will come, i know) it was basically, perfect. =)
with the lime green theme, waiters/waitresses, (unlike normally the kendarats would be dressed) the OH-SO-DELICIOUS food, like seriously people. the kuihs are damnnnn delicious!! like freshly-made on the spot. HONEST! and all of that, it kindda looked...grand! i was very happy for the newly-weds. (= mr ajee, was very busy with his bangla dishwashers here and there, his honda EK clans, his all time bestfriends, his colleagues, his just famous with the makciks. hmmm.

oh! like usual, for almost every weddings now, there'd be these bunch of fanatic bikers, showing off their cliques, designs, how speedy they are, how mat-rempitness their bike is, and all of that, well, for this wedding, its even cooler. CARS! hahaha. cars lining up at 130 simei, of all the same brands or i would say it, Bumble Bee's siblings, E-K lime green, E-K baby pink, E-K red....ETC. all the cute fat-ass Honda cars. lol.
i came in the nick of time when they did their "vvvvvrooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmmssssss". family + adnan was kinda...uhm, clueless. sorry fam! =)
i was very, very happy. even though i'm not part of the family, or even got ANY HOOTS with them, or yet, i was still VERY happy for the Rahmat's family. =D
buuuuuutttt! family and myself went off roughly 1 and half hours after we came, as it was DADDY'S BIRTHDAY! (y-e-a-h) so kindda, missed the other actions.

SO! after changing from Kurong to casual wear, we head straight to JB with adnan's family's Trajet. the scenery of the restaurant was nice, but the food, uhm, not-so-good. (sorry, bro. BUT SERIOUSLY) reached home almost 12am and ajee with his sexy sick voice, dropped by and still with his kurong, with bryani. the berkat was spaghetti plates, and ajee's mum gave us another 4 more pieces, after getting 2 pieces earlier that day. bed was calling, and poof! la-la land!
oh yes, the tags.

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aeriel: zzz u and ur hair.. FOREVER AND ALWAYS! hahaha.. watever u do..pls noo more purple hahaha
aeriel: baju hijau lawar..cam pernah nampak je hahaha US f21 eh
YES, I AM FOREVER WITH MY HAIR! I'M A GIRL, INCASE U FORGOT! lol. again i repeat, that purple streak was cool lah! again, WAS cool! =p and yelah, yelah! HEY EVERYONE! THAT SHIRT WAS FROM PHIRKHAN!!!! thank you, boss! hehe. i believe there's MORE to where it came from, RRIIIIGGGHHHTTTT??

tyra: wadeva u do to ur hair, u alwys look gorgeous! =)
thanks darling. hope ur feeling all better now. =)

atiqah: hello hello kak syiqah (: the song @ my blog is composed by avril lavigne . but she let leona lewis cover for her . so leona lewis take that song for one of her cd's single (: hehe !
atiqah: anyway i like your highlights ! so prettyyy . its been a long time since we chatted . how have you been ? hope all's fine for you . hehe . good day !
oh cool. i didnt realised that. honestly, was like shocked lah. cos i heard the song from leona lewis rather than avril. and uhm, leona sung it wayyyy better. heh. & thanks for the compliments. yes its been a while, hasnt it? i've been great! hope ur well, too. tc!

nasyirah: hello kak syiqa:D how r you? da lame tk bkk blog sey. and since im here, HELLO (:
hello, my sweet nasyirah! i'm doing fine, u? oh and hello again! (;

mooncake: chiqaaa..how about escape during the holidays???sure gerekkkk..??haha,plan laaarrrr...da lamerrrrr tk jumpeeeeee kaaaaauuuuu!!!!
mooncake: haha,& aku tak tau knper biler aku tgk muke kau yg dgn azirah tu aku just cant stop laughing to myself..haha...aku ve been learning to laugh at u more..like what u ve been doing?laughing over meeeeeee
mun, kau maken besar, maken kurang ajar ehh? tp, ESCAPE JATOH LAH BEB! when je aku nak tau. yelahhhh. part gini baru nak ingat aku. kalau tk, kau buang aku kat tong sampah SULO. babi pey mooncake! and please, correct ur sentence. its not LAUGH, its AMAZED by my beauty. kan? kan? KAN????? hahaha. kau jage....next time aku jumpe kau, aku wont stop sarcasm!!!!!!!

YANIEEEE: hahaha, cute la ur mum.. da ape rank skrg? hahahaha.. kirekan u and ur sis is only recruit la gitu..
haha. dier memang gitu. dah naik corporal uh aku rase! haha.

imaaaaaaaa: parents kau cute or whattttttttt!!!
haha. sebab tu aku pon ade CUTE FACTOR! hahahah. oh, aku copy paste kau nyer style of replying tags. jgn marah ye? hehe. dah takde idea uh, beb. hehe.

happy 5 monthsary, dear darling. more than yesterday, more than yesterday...

PLAIN ANNOYING!

2008-12-10T20:14:00.003+08:00

i just got to say something though.
or not?
i chose not. but i'll give u a combo; DUMB SHIT-HOLE-MORONS.
sorry, but i'm putting you all aside for all i care, i promise. =)

so moving on.
i gave sister a penny of my thoughts earlier today. and i really just want to best for her. (i love you!)
met ajee for lunch just now. accompanied him go Sungei Kadot to settle some of his client's stuff, and got home roughly aroun 2.30pm, and slept till 4.30pm. yes, i can quite a SLEEP-ER. =)
anyways, just 2 days left before my YanaBaby's Ash is going to NS. (poor hun) STAY STRONG, OKAY!! i've been in that situation before, and it sucked. but somehow got used to it. so i just hope this girl would do the same. i know it might be tough especially when she's dependent on her bf, but i'm sure she could do it. :)

not going to update much today. kindda pissed off. so buzz!